Sunday, February 20, 2011

Biggest Challenge Yet

I think the biggest challenge I'm going to face in training for and running this half marathon is my self discipline...or lack there of.  I have always struggled with the ability to set a goal or a limit for myself, completely independent others, and stick to it.  I don't know why, because I am an independent person completely capable of doing things on my own, but self discipline has always been difficult for me.  Whether it's eating, keeping up on dishes or laundry, limiting the time I just sit around and do nothing, or whatever...I really struggle with setting a limit for myself and sticking with it.

Taking on this challenge is helping me develop some level of self discipline.  I am proud to say I have stuck with the training program.  I had one little hiccup when I got back to Nebraska...and then three hours later drove to Kansas City for a very full family weekend.  Now to keep it going...partially to keep building my endurance and ability to run the entire 13.1 miles and partially to see if I can develop some more self discipline in other areas of my life.  I want to be able to set limits for myself and stick to them.  I want to be able to get up when my alarm goes off so I can do something for me (read, run, get to work early, whatever) instead of hitting snooze until I absolutely have to get up or else I'll be late for something I have to do.  I want to be able to eat one Reese's Peanut Butter Cup Heart from Valentine's day and be satisfied instead of eating half the bag at one time.  Maybe I'll get there, maybe I won't (especially with the Reese's).  But I want to see if I can improve my habits a little bit between now and May 1.

On a different note...three different people came up to me this week and made some comment about me looking like I had lost weight.  While I'm not doing this half marathon to loose weight, if I loose some in the process woohoo...and maybe having more complements about how I look will give me some motivation to stick with the training and derby...and maybe only eat one Reese's =)