Now that we're a bit more than a week in 2015, I feel like it's time to put into writing some hopes I have for this year. I'm not one that's big on New Year's Resolutions. I have the philosophy that if you feel like you need to make a change in your life, then do it. There's no reason to wait for an arbitrary date, just do it. However it's hard not to get caught up in the spirit of reflection the new year brings around. Everyone's talking about what their year was like last year and what they're looking to do differently in the coming year...it's hard not to get sucked into that.
So here I am, getting sucked into it. What 2014 looked like and what I hope for in 2015.
I'm not going to say 2014 was a bad year, but it certainly wasn't one of my favorites. I feel like it was marked by so much change, and so much chaos at times, that I forgot to really enjoy any moments. We started the year talking about our goals-me wanting to run another half marathon, paying off our 2nd car, doing some home improvements...and then BOOM, we found out we were pregnant with Killean and that changed some of our plans. Took a moment to reset and them we were good. And then BOOM, find out I have an actual opportunity to transfer to Lincoln instead of a possibility of a potential transfer to Lincoln. Decide to take that chance and start moving towards that. Spend quite a bit of time getting the house ready to sell. BOOM, sell the house in a weekend (well...a few weeks after the back and forth with the buyer). Scramble to find a place to live, and find one we think will be decent. Tiny, but cheap and livable so we can save a good chunk of money and then buy a house summer of 2015. BOOM, have a baby. (Ok...this one really wasn't a boom...we knew it was coming. But still, big event that drastically changes how your day to day life looks. So...BOOM!). Barely start adjusting to life with a second child and BOOM, apartment has mold so we have to move. Move into a different apartment unit in the same complex, realize the apartment managers/owners are not that great (to be kind) and decide to move on the buying a house thing about 8 months earlier than expected. BOOM, find a house and move in. BOOM, go back to work. BOOM, holidays. BOOM, welcome 2015!
I know the year held more than that, but that's what I see in my memory highlights as I look back. There's lots of good in there, but lots of BOOMS too. And no matter how good the BOOMS are, they still shake up your world a bit. I'm truly not complaining because I'm VERY grateful to be where we are. I love how the timing worked out wonderfully with everything that came at us this year. I wouldn't have chosen that timing, but I think it all worked out pretty darn well considering.
But for this next year...I would love to look back at 2015 in about 360 days and not see as many BOOMS. I would love to look back and see memories of time spent with family-near and far. Memories of laughter and fun. The feeling of setting a goal and accomplishing it-not being derailed before you even take your first step. I would love for 2015 to be a calmer year, where we get to enjoy our time and those around us. I want to take the time to be in the moment and feel ourselves settle into where we're at. I haven't felt settled for a while...it would be nice to have that feeling.
So that's what I'm hoping for in 2015. I'm hoping for a chance to relax and enjoy life. I'm hoping for a chance to develop my relationship with my boys, and deepen my relationship with Ian. I'm looking forward to the changes and challenges that will come with my desire to feel settled (not sure how that will work my personality that is always go, Go, GO!), but I'm hoping that includes a chance for me to read a book (or two)...have regular date nights with Ian...go the museum/park/zoo with my boys...save up some money for a trip with my girlfriends and maybe get an awesome Christmas present for our family next year (thinking a new refrigerator!!!!-real exciting, I know!).
Maybe by June or July this idea of settling will seem boring and torturous. But for the forseable future, I can't imagine anything better than enjoying a glass of wine on a Saturday night and just soaking in the calm of a home where everyone has gone to bed. That seems like pure. heaven.
Here's to a happy 2015 filled with all your wildest (or calmest) dreams!